You Can Run, But You Can't Hide

House of Cards was a movie in the 90s with Kathleen Turner and Tommy Lee Jones. Kathleen Turner played the part of a mother who's young daughter was traumatized when she saw her father fall to his death. The little girl starts to display unusual behavior and so her mother takes her to see an expert in autism, played by Tommy Lee Jones. One scene in the movie has the little girl in a room while being observed by the expert. She is painting her arm instead of the paper on the table. Someone comes rushing into the room due to an emergency with another patient and so the expert runs out of the room. Upon his return, he notices that the little girl is not there. He immediately goes into the room where she was painting, looks all around but does not see her and starts to go out the door. However, he stops and turns around. There is a large tree outside the window and he can just barely see the outline of the little girl in front of the tree. She painted her entire body, blending in with the tree.

I couldn't help but cry out "That's me!" When I saw that scene. I never wanted anyone to see me. I always tried to be invisible. I even tried to hide from God. It's not difficult to be unnoticeable with people but you can't hide from God.

You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways,

Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.

You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day,

for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place,

when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book

before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, God. How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand -- when I awake, I am still with you.

Psalms 139:1-18

It can be scary to think to think that there is no place to hide from God; that he knows everything about you. I find this Psalm to be comforting. I don't want people to know me. I don't want them to see the real me. But God He knows all about me. He knows the real me and He loves me so much that He sent His Son to die for me.